It's just a thought, only a thought

I apologize that once again I'm not in love

Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive

If my life is for rent...